I thought of this question..
Why do ppl actually cut themselves?
A simple answer would be , their emo..
lol
no..
i think it is far from that..
basically, i think it is because they are supurbly emotionally hurt, that they think that physical pain is nothing compared to the emotional suffering shitty thing they are going through.
yeah..yupps.
so that is what i think
anybody thinks otherwise?
commmmmmmeeeennnnttt please ..
oh and poor junda, skipped his CCA, and stayed in school computer lab playing some LAME SHIT game!
oh, btw, that is called skipping of classes with no proper reason.
then, the lab tech. tapped him on the back.
he turned around.
tech say follow him
asked for his accnt username and password,
and then his sch accnt kana banned..
serve you dumbass right!!
HAHA
NOOB
bye..
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JK
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i love you

Today i retoook my NAPFA because i was not happy with my previous resultss.
at least everything improved..
Sit ups: 46
Shuttle run: 10s [hehe..junda, i beat you once again]
incline pull ups: 26 [shit luh..i did like 20+ first, then had like..10 not counted..no enerdy and left like..3-7seconds left, then i just dont care chiong do 6 in that time..stupid teacher]
standing broad jump: 198cm [at least i improved by 5cm..]
sit and reach: 41cm [lol..totally crushed myprevious score..i got what? 26cm? improved by 15cm...one ruler,,lol]
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yupps..thats that
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i just love you

wrote this today in school
it sucks, i know
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The dying bird, a signal.
A poisoned dove, the hint.
That everything has gone wrong,
Self destruction from within.
Dried up, scattered roses,
In front of every door.
The sinner's blood beside it,
Splashed onto the floor
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there you have it..
it's too short and sucky, i know..
help me continue it..

wah..today so tiring.first, after school had to go for Australian Science thing..i
had like 1 hour 2 minutes to complete the paper, but i completed in 30 minutes..
lol
then after that, played soccer for around 20 minutes, the go for math trail.
so pissed off, angry and tired by that.
first, we went drama center for breifing
.the we got our first clue.
[2 to the power of 5] white and [2 to the power of 5] black.
it was too easy..
2 to the power of 5 was 32 and 32 white and black squares?
duh..chess lah!
i dunno then funny le..
after reaching the station, our question was one of those pictures with a grid, with point a and point b on intersecting lines, and asking us how many different ways to reach point b..
shit
i forgot how to do that kind of questions..
then for second clue, it was"bouncing balls"
lol..can be sooo many things.
soccer? tennis? basketball? squash? volleyball?
lol
we tried basketball first,but nobody there,
so we tried table tennis..then there got ppl, our wuestion was those kind,5 ppl, 2 statements, only one true..must use logic..
sigh
then i didnt know how to do, so i went to play table tennis with other ppl..
[ i know that was NOT on task..]
.3rd clue..the KILLER!"
i see orange, blue, black, green stickers, all with different meaning."
WTF!!
we were stuck there for like..30 minutes.
we were searching like siao for stickers with color and meaning..search with sec. 2 and 3, they also dunno where.search so long,
then i hear i senior give clue say color coding, so i ask raymond and other 2 members to go libraryguess wad?
the station was on the 3rd lvl of the library..
GRR.
you know what the stickers were?
the stupid little small stickers at the bottom of the book to mark the genre..
DAMN
the question type was like the towers of hanoi, this time, just using books instead of rings
..lol..
then our next clue was ridiculously long, so i forgot it,
but it was leading us to Kah Kee hall..
outside KKH, we had to do some kind of question with a lot of rectangles inside rectangles, and made to count how many rectangles there were in total..
after that, our next clue was:
"sodium chloride (toilet)"lol..i immediately knew, SALT centre..in the toilet..then there, we got some CHAO easy question, or at least i thought it was.we solved it in less then 3 minutes..lol.
our next clue was" oldest building" or something liddat..knew where it was..then went there, sitting on the floor, the i saw
YOU
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o.0"
our next clue was:
"Mmm.."
lol
i though canteen..
so ran there, then wrong..
raymond called nicholas, and then found out it was not canteen. but class 3M..
lol
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went there..and our question was..
SODOKU!
omg..
too easy le ba..
solved it..then had to go back to drama center le..no more time..
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oh yah..
recalling a conversation i had with wilfred:
W : Cross country race what is the distance one huh?
Me: depend on cross which country
W : 0.o"
Nicholas: Yah..if you cross russia, also depends on which direction you crossing from
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lol
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i hate love you...
i love hate her...
i hate love you...
i love hate her...
i hate love you...
i love hate her...
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spam..
love
hate
love

oh yah did i say i love jesse mccartney?
here are the lyrics for his song, just so you know.
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I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]
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there you have it..
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another great song, this time by Augustana..
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In the light of the sun,
Is there anyone?
Oh it has begun.
Oh dear, you look so lost,
eyes are red
and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed.
You said,
You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.
yeah.
Essential yet appealed,
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field,
When flowers gaze at you,
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you
You said,
You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.
She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain.
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.
You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
Boston, where no one knows my name
where no one knows my name
where no one knows my name
Boston, where no one knows my name.
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i hate love you
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Ok, since you wanna hear why i was pissed by the chinese teacher, then i shall explain.
Today, during chinese, we had to do some kind of summary WORKSHEET..
read carefully, worksheet, not test or anything.
Then while i was doing worksheet, i was talking to junda, or in other words, multi-tasking..
then the teacher thought the class was too noisy and thus, said the nxt person to talk would have 1 mark deducted from the worksheet [it is over 20] .
Then junda couldnt resist telling me about his new P6 gf, so he whispered to me.
I didnt talk or anything, then teacher looked my way and thought i was conversing with jun da.
PATHETIC
then she deducted 1 mark from both of us..
but i was like..so what?
it was only a worksheet..i didnt see why deducting 1 mark was so serious.
lol
worksheet only and she gets so pissed..
that makes me even more PISSED..
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oh, and tomorrow i have Australian Science Competition and Math Trail, so sadly cannot go for 3rd lang.
wish me luckkkk.... (:
but i have no idea what is gonna happen for both the trail and science thing..
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bye ppl
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i really hate love you...
just dont wanna tell you..

just wanted to post to let you ppl know that i am still alive after invidulating and helping out in the SMOPS..
bye..
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i hate love you

Oh shit..
stupid jun da..
you finally own me at something.
told you i am not a distance runner..
Anyway..today i had 2.4km for napfa..
gosh i totally suck at it..
Jun Da lapped me when i was on my 4th round..
my horrible timing was 13.2x
sigh..
i think that is only a B or a C..
oh man i suck..
Joo Ern, as usuall totally PWNED the whole Sec. 1 Aphelion and got an amazing timing of 9.something or early 10.something...
i gotta trian more...
forgot to post yesterday, so..
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yesterday...
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damn scary..
after school had english exam and there was summary.
i was clueless how to properly do a summary.
but anyway,
today (or yesterday..lol) had science JUST before our precious 10 minute break.
BUT,
Mrs TEO CC made us stay back and we almost missed our whole break!
ARGH
Anyway, on the night of 17/4/07,
i had to like..stay up till 1pm to do my history ACE!
and today(or yesterday, 18/4), Ms ling didn't come for history!!
Grrrrrr...
Pissed me off..
work soooo late then dont collect..
and because she didt come, we had 2hrs40min of english lesson today! (or 4 periods)
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now, zipping to the situation in the english test..
i was sssooooooo unlucky! We had to sit according to register number, and had to sit on Li Ming's seat..
lol
throughout the whole exam, i didnt dare to touch the table,
so i did half the paper on my lap..lol..and i had to put my pencil case on the floor..
i think i have "liminger-phobia",
oh, and coincidentally, our comprehension passages were about phobias too..lol
the writer had a phobia of round food items..lol
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i took around 50 minutes out of one hour and 45 minutes to complete the test..
i was damn sleepy, and wanted to sleep, but the thought of the contaminated table helped me to make out my mind.
so i was trying my best NOT to sleep, and trying to entertain myself.
damn boring luh..
but at least something relatively interesting happened during the test.
people outside started fogging the whole school.
then those white-colored, gas-like things came through the window..
everybody quickly closed the windows,
EXCEPT for liming, who was damn blur, despite us like..asking him to close the windows twice.
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finally, escape..
at around 3.10pm during the test, Ms Ngo came in and allowed those who finished the paper to leave the class..
so, yay!i quickly left.
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oh, and did i say i OWNED the whole class at the mock english exam?
Especially junda..
i got 53.5/80
or something liddat..
then jun da shouted: who has 50 or above!!
no one had 50 or above..
then big-mouth-disease guy, or junda, go say :Shawn get 53.5 lehh..
they were like WAH!
i am going to niao junda..
hehex
oh.
and junda is a living joke,
keeps taking off his shoes and socs in class lor..
i keep telling him: ' Oi! dont take your shoes off lehh! The PSI will shoooooot uuuppp to 500+ lehh...please spare me the suffering."
lol..[p.s. what's worse, i sit next to him!!]
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After the test, we went to auditorium at 3.55pm to attend talk for helping out in SMOPS..
wooohoo..
cant wait for Saturday, go help SMOPS!
and [as i said, i loovvee teasing ppl] i told wilfred: ''wah!die lehh..Li Ming has to lead a grp of 30+ ppl!! Wait he lose all of them lehh? I think he will actually be lost TOGETHER with them!''
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i pity group 32, or the group he's gonna take..
*sigh*
i think i wrote too much liao..bye..
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i loove you..
and im not saying who..

Today was quite okay..
Started off with Yi Ren telling me that I had to complet the website for Projects Day by Friday..
DAMN
Then have a preiod of Literature..blahblah
I actually forgot what teacher taught us..
wait ar..lemme recall..
hhhhhhmmmmmmm
wait..was there even Literature today?!
LOL
i totally forgot what happened this morning..
i think im llsing my mind..
because i think too much of YOU..
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anyway, the afternoon and recess still can remember..
so i didnt lose my mind after all.
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recess played a game whereby 22 ppl chase after a ball, SOCCER!
actually only 12 ppl as we played street-soccer.
sorry ezor for accidentally tripping you..
and i cant believe the safe i made since i was not defender or keeper..
raymond or ezor shot,
went through ying zhi's legs [lol..i dunno YIN zhi or YING zhi..]
and almost crossed the line.
i actually somehow prevented it from doing that..
still dunno how.
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anyway, after recess was computer class!!!YAY i looove it..especially last term's lesson on basic html.
but this term learning flash..
i SUKC at it.
my spelling SUKCS too..lol

after a boring comp. lesson, went back to class for history, i realised i actually forgot to bring ALL of my history stuff..
grrrrr.
lucky teacher let the ppl who didnt bring sit and share.
so i share with the *DUMBEST* person on earth, JUNDA!!harhar [ i just loooovveee teasing him]
jun da was playing with jie yang's rubik's cube during history..lol
then we got bored and played sme game under his desk..
lol.
then after history was englishh/...
tomorrow have english testt..grr
there's summary and i dunno how to do one properly..
i am DEAD.
after english, wilfred told me that my name was ticked 5 times..and nicholas will submit to ms yap for SCOLDING..
FUCK
but..
i ask nicholas and keith, and found out i talked toooo much..
but i was having a nice conversation only..grrrrrr..
DAMN
anyway, so i decided to talk LESS..
and hope nicholas will ERASE some ticks {to nich..THANX ALOT!! *wink* talk less i shall}
after come back from 10 minutes break, got back math paper to do corrections..
congrats to edmund for being the MATH WIZ!!@@@
when Ms Tong gave me my paper,
i was like, . shit .
would i get b3 or lower? i wanna get exempted from math..too lazy to study..
looked at markss
PHEW
30.5/40
got A1 by 1 mark..
when i checked my paper,
. SHIT . ,
again.
tooooooooo maaaaannnnnnnnnyyyyy careless mistakes..
like..13-7=8..
lol
i am DUMB
but at least i got higher marks then the *DUMBEST* person on earth..
lol
. must make LESS careless mistakes and talk LESS .
grrrrr
pissed off..
SHITTY marks
sadly, Marcus failed.
JIAYOU!!!!
you got higher then me for PSLE, so you can do it!!!
gogogo
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Now doing history ACE and then if still have time, do my Projects day website..
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bye ppl.. i hafta talk LESS
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i'll always love you..

Today woke up late..9+am
Then, i realised i forgot to do my learning lab homework ): so i rushed.
but couldnt finish all, i only did like..20 questions..so didnt really care and quickly packed and rushed..
Science was about boring cells...dunno what epithelial cell or plasma something.. o.0"
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Then for maths, even worse, had some mock test and ZhongWei was caught trying to use his phone's calculator..
Denise, the dumb cousin of mine, started to use her phone too or something, and then told teacher i used mine ):
teacher then damn pissed off and lectured the class on the seriousness of NOT cheating during tests..
He say he was head something for O-levels and stuff..
Then he said ,"Especially denise, cheated in your japanese test." or something.
Poor denise..hehex..
Then still say i cheat using calculator?
i TOTALLY did NOT do that luh..
retarded Zhong Wei managed to screw up again...after being caught using his phone calculator, he was AGAIN caught for looking at my answers..lol..he just wants to get full marks.. XD
He was made to sit at the small white teacher's table thing..
he was saying like ,"i didnt look at shawn's answers...I was looking at his keychain" or something liddat.
he was SO lying..His face was like..right in front of my paper..lol
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After being made to sit there, he screwed up the table, messing it up like SIAO..
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Class finally end..
BUT..had to wait 1 hr for my father to come fetch me ):
Michelle was watching some kinda prize presentation or something..
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Then i realised tomorrow got MATH TEST and i left all my math stuff in school...
SH!T
so cant study..we have to learn howta make formulas or something..
i totally DONT know how to do that..
Nicholas rawks at doing that..i think he is the only one who noes how to..
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lol
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gotta go now..
doing Lit ACE, song analysis..
What song?
Waiting on the world to change by John Mayer...
****************lyrics***************
Me and all my friends
We’re all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There’s no way we ever could
Now we see everything that’s gone wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don’t have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Its hard to beat the system
When we’re standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbours home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
‘Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That’s why we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change
And we’re still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change
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lol..put it there for fun
WAITWAIT..
i am supposed to do ACE..
bye people..
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oh..get well soon
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I am using the school computer to blogg..
HARAHAr.
Must go CCA soon..2pm start,,
i think i 2.15pm..
late a little nevermind one.
cause anyway my teacher come 2.30pm one..
bye wanna eat,...
hehe

Aww man I suck..Napfa today..look at wad i actually got..Sit-Ups - 43 (A)Sit and Reach - 26cm (E!!!) bleaagh..i'm soo gonna want to retake this. i got 40cm last year.Shuttle Run - 10.1s (A) Jun Da..i beat you..haha ownage.Incline Pull-Up - 26 (A) Stupid Keith stand next to me counting in chinese like a retard come an make me laugh..See lah...
Standing Broad Jump - 1.93m (C) Argh..fisrt jump 1.86 only then not happy go and rejump..1.93. Actually wanted to rejump again but teacher was angry with Benjamin..DAMMIT
Total only 19 points..haiya..cannot get gold le..SHIT..
FCUK
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Science lesson today had live experiment..
Go downstairs and do stuff 0.o" ..better then sitting in science lab listening to her talk whole lesson.
We had to run, hop and walk.
First, walk. I walk slow leh..1.49m/s damn slow..Fastest walker was AUSTIN!!
Then, run..hehe..My speed was 5.60m/s ..OWNED junda..OWNAGE..,junda read this lah..Faster runner was ME!!
Lastly, hop. I hop still ok lah..forgot my speed but slightly above average correct liao..Grasshopper of the class is EZOR!!
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After school still had to stay back for scince lesson.
Started 20 minutes late cause Mrs Teo was scolding us for having conversasions..grr.
I didnt eat luncch so i bought 2 KitKat chunkys..
During the scince lesson felt like eating chocolate so?
Eat lor..
Aiya..shouldnt have done that. Wait dirty LT2 then die..
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After the class, played soccer for a while.
SORRY junda for whacking you twice in one day..
ACCIDENTALLY!!
Well, at least the second one was. First one my aiming too good le..haha..say i wanna hit you, then go far away, THWAK, really hit you.
Hope your head ok now..
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Went home
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After eat dinner, dunno why had gastric pain..it was like..&#$%!!!
Then some person said i could heal it with love medicine?!
LOL
Dont talk crap..you know the truth..
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bye
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love you..

Behind my hidden scars,
Inside my solemn face.
Is a world you'd never imagine,
Is a world of my disgrace.
The physical hurt I inflicted,
Emotional hurt I must bear.
Is just so indescribable,
And thus so I can swear:
I never want to live this life,
Go through this shit again.
'Cause whatever I do,
Right or wrong,
It's always just the same.
I'm dreaming of my special world,
Where people can run free.
More joy, more light, more life,
As much love as a sea.
I wish my soul could be torn out,
From deep inside of me.
And be transported away,
To the world only I can see.
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The End
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Omg..I bloody dont like her lah...
You know who I'm talking to..
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I love you..

OMG..cant stop
Now a new skin, Kim Jung Hoon
Image from deviantart.
check it out
www.blogskins.com/me/superuneful

Argh..i love making blogskins.
Anyways..check out the new blogskin i made
For that gazette lover
To view go under links..
~~~~~~bye~~~~~~

Good Friday rawks......
Now have more time to post, create blogskin, and do project!!
YAY..finally can get ACE..
Yesterday in school was damn slack, Projects Day Prelim. Judging
Amazingly, despite my LAN-ness in chinese, i was in Category 8--Chinese
I joined to get ACE lah..dont worry i'm not crazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Chinese ACE for me soooo hard to get since the teacher hates me ALOT and my chinese SUCKS!
Somehow, i think since p2, except p3, ALL chinese teachers hate me lor...i too lousy le ba.
Cai Lao Shi is still the best chinese teacher@@@@
Anyway, back to Projects Day..
I think the teachers quite happy with wad i did..YAY
Poor JieYang..have to redo cause project not good
GOGOGOGO jie yang..! Who ask you do soccer..
Finish the whole thing at about 11pm..
Then teacher asked us to wait in drama center for 1hr, release us at 12.50!!SOO early,
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Now, skipping 8 and a half hours after school ends,
I went to see Mr Bean's Holiday XD
It was soo bloody funny,
He ate the lobster WITH the shell..
He practically lost everything except his video-cam lor..
But i loved the ending part of the movie..
So AMAZING and COINCIDENTAL..
Go watch it if you haven't!
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Oh yah, i created a new blogskin, this time because I was TOO lazy to find pictures, I just drew everything myself and scanned it in..
I shall link it in my links section..
Hope you like the skin..

Lol, today during English lesson Jun Da was making me laugh TOO much.. couldnt even write properly lah.
and then he stood up, i quickly pulled his chair away..hehex..then he sat down. SHIT . he almost fall lucky i pity him push the chair slightly back.
Anyways, today on 156 to 3rd lang, i saw this damn fat guy in blue shirt.. he is . GAY .
he sat diagonally opposite me and aaron, then he kept smiling at me and aaron, totally freaked me out!
DAMN HIM
Then at one stop, he stood up and walked to the door, like wanna slight liddat, but FCUK..he actually sat opposite me..damn that SUCKED LIKE HELL!
i quickly pretended to sms all the way to 3rd lang..haha..well, i wasactually sms-ing..
oh..one last thing..
HUI QI YOU TRICKED ME DAMN IT!!!ARGH
i should have never said that, never did i think you will show the whole world and stuff..argh,..i will definitely reme,ber that and hate you for it..
i shall trick you back..
watch out..

ARGH!! Jun da's sister is chasing me for her blogskin!!
Failed jap..AGAIN!!
This sucks..Now, i gotta do my history ACE..retype everyting cuz i lost my thumbdrive.
And i fell down..AGAIN and started to bleed like hell..so sadly i couldnt play soccer. ):
Denise is now trying to spam my tagboard with her accomplice, Zhong Wei the RETARD www.blogskins.com/me/superuneful
thats me..yayness. Only two skins, finishing on my 3rd and planning for my forth.
I lost my english homework..bleagh!
Nownow..a new person joined my Jap class..hmm.
Oh yah!.. So sad this year's April Fools Day is on a Sunday..sigh
Anyway,.,i choiging ACE now, so bye (:
cya